::welcome back::

I'd wanted to write, create my post, really, but for some reasons, i hadn't gotten the chance to do that. I kind of hybernated for a long period of time and had not updated my blog since time immemorial.

Possible reasons for this are as follows:

> a lot of things had happened in just a very short span of timeand i was overwhelmed by these events (especially the baby and the pregnancy thing).mymind just simply shut off, and i was suddenly in denial. i'll write aboutit one day...in time.

> i hadn't gotten much time since i was transferred overto sprint-nextel account due to my unpredictable ( i mean, very unpredictable schedule).

> i had chosen to go out w/ my friends, socialize, and spend time w/ my loved onesthat sit before the computer screen.

> whenever i had spare time i always made sure that i spend itw/ my sweet super kulit gurl or in my bed, curled up, dozing off.

> or maybe cuz i was jaz sooo0 tinatamad. Yun lang yun e. =)

i was born to love you

I Was Born To Love You(Eric Carmen/Andy Goldmark)
I never really understood loveNo, not until I saw your faceThen I knew what I'd been missingFor all my life
I never let myself believe it
No, not till I looked into your eyes
Then I knew I found all I need
The moment that I found you
I was born to love you
Born to be right here by your side
Through all your darkest nights
I was born to love you
I'd do anything to make you mine
Until the end of time
There's no need to ever doubt it
You set my love free when you walked in the door
You changed everything
You're all that I'm living for
I was born to love you
Born to be right here by your side
Through all your darkest nights
I was born to love you
I'd do anything to make you mine
Until the end of time
You changed everything
You're all that I'm living for
I was born to love you
Born to be right here by your side
Through all your darkest nights
I was born to love you
I'd do anything to make you mine
Until the end of time
I was born to love you
Born to be right here by your side
Through all your darkest nights
I was born to love you
I'd do anything to make you mine
Until the end of time
I was born to love you

Good News, Bad News, Worse News

GOOD NEWS:

“Thank you for calling Sprint together with Nextel, my name is Erin.

How can I help you?”

yipeeeeee! Training will be on Monday 11 p.m. – 8 a.m.

Manila Time. =)

better yet…

“Thank you for calling Sprint together with Bayantel…” wahaha! Wattafuck! I’m gonna blow out of here, anyway. Soon.

BAD NEWS:

Badtrip! We just had a day hike ( Mt. Kataybang, Bataan, May 25,2006) but we weren’t able to get to the summit. We got fuckin’ lost and spent half of the day trying to find the trail. We even tried river trekking with all the boulders that we needed to surmount just to find out, it was not the right way. It just brought us to nowhere and we had to go back. Aaaargh! After the

“brainstorming” and POP session, we finally agreed to get a guide and so, at around 2 p.m., we were already at the rest house to take our lunch. Everybody was starving. Ascend would take us another couple of hours to reach the peak, hence, we came to a decision not to take the risk of being left behind by the 6 p.m. trip (last trip) going to Balanga. But then, these things are bound to crop up in every climb anyway. In this situation, making decisions head-on will definitely save our ass from further trouble.

After the pre-climb for Mt. Ugu, we headed off to the jump off point, washed up, and went home. No, they went home, while I, so fuckin’ tired and wasted, headed off to the office. That was suicide!

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WORSE NEWS

I’m gaining weight! Shit! And I’m starting to get bent out of shape. from 47 lbs., I am a screaming 52 lbs. now. OMG! My eating habit is goin’ out of control, I guess. Or perhaps, this gain weight crisis may also be attributed to my lifestyle ( booze, smoke, less workout, etc.). although, I’m into climbing and things like that, I still get this “baby fats”, probably because I feel the need to munch carbo stuffs more today than before to be able to have enough energy for all these activities especially everytime I go out for a climb, thus, fat gain. I miscalculated the calories that I was taking. Calories intake should be directly proportional to the the calories you’re going to burn. Or If youre planning to trim down a little, calories intake must be a little less than the calories you intend to burn. Add it to the fact that I haven’t had much time to workout these past few weeks, do stomach crunches and cardio exercises due to my airtight schedule. Everything is going berserk! Oh my! I need to hit the gym again and go on a diet.

still...

it never goes away...it never dies.
it's still here.
a familiar feeling...
it's when you're with somebody
and you're thinking of someone from the past.
it's when you're calling him
with that someone's name...
it's when you wish it never happened
because it will just go on...
and you just know that it will never go away..
that it will never die.

and you will always remember...
will never forget.

don't follow the light!

zzzzzzzzzzz....ngork!
outcast
sleepy
hungry
sleepy
upset
sleepy
fuckin' sleepy
damn sleepy
longing
longing
longing....
ei! ei! ei! don't fuckin' follow the light!
I'm losin' mahself...whooo! whooo! whooo!
Not now..not now...baby.
i love you..
i love you..
don't let me drift away.

From Vonage to Sprint

I have seen this coming. Huddled inside the conference room, 100+ agents of Welcome Vonage were clueless. Then, OM Eric dropped the bomb and told us straight to our face that 24 agents were randomly chosen, and will be transferred to Sprint effective April 24. They will be attending the cross-training on Tuesday. Unfortunately, most of my buddies were chosen including Kim. For some reasons, my name was not called by our OM. I felt bad. I have actually foreseen this. My teammates told me that it’s a good thing that I was not in the list, thus, less pressure. Calling for Sprint will definitely mean goodbye to petiks mode, surfing, eating on the floor, friendster, etc.

Aargh! But what the heck?! As long as I’m with the people that I’ve been with since the boom of Vonage, I’ll be just fine. =)

getting ready for the Mt. Ugu climb

Oh yeah! So excited and everything! This is gonna be my first major climb since time immemorial. Comes second week of May (May 10-13), we’ll be off to Mt. Ugu. Ascend will take us 2 days to reach the summit.

Mt. Ugo is basically one of the major peaks in the mountainous region of Benguet and Nueva Vizcaya provinces with an elevation of 2,165 meters above sea level. The name “Ugo” was derived from the Ibaloi word “Ugoan” which means “to cut the neck”. During the early times, encounter between hunters usually result in cutting the neck of their defeated opponents. Also during the Spanish times, Spaniards who tried to colonize the inhabitants were killed in the same manner in this mountain in order to protect their lands. Mt. Ugo is also known as the “plane grabber” because of the numbers of plane crash incidents that crashes on the said mountain. In the early 1960’s a UC45 CAB from Cubi Airport crashed at the slope of Mt. Ugo in Kalaudan. In June 26,1987, a Philippine Airline (PAL) plane from Manila bound to Loakan Airport crashed on the southern portion of Mt. Ugo, about 1Km down from the peak. Mountaineers who climbed Mt. Ugu brought back stories of ghostly experience attributed to the victims of the PAL crash site.*

But before I get so excited, I got to prepare myself physically which means I will have to undergo endurance training (running and stairs). Cuz you know, the said training is a necessity for every major climb. Unless you’re goin’ to bring along some sort of special team and have them carry you in a stretcher or something all the way up to the summit. Otherwise, you have to be VERY physically fit.

It had been almost 7 years since my last climb with my batchmates in Bulacan Mountaineering Club (BMC). I had been too occupied w/ other things like work, social life (night life), and relationship kyeme with these assholes and manwhores. Add these to the fact that i met an accident (vehicular) 3 years ago and i had to undergo physical therapy ‘cuz my left leg was kind of broken. I thought I would never do the things that i loved and used to do (dancing and climbing) again, ever. Now, I’m in a state of bliss ‘cuz I’m back to dancing and I’m proud to say that i can dance better than before. It’s a good thing my self-esteem and determination were not ruined though I felt like things would never be the same again. For almost 3 months, I was hitting the gym, attending dance classes, and doing other outdoor activities. I was working my ass out to overcome all my insecurities and uncertainties. My leg now is, somehow, performing better. I’m reunited with my fellow mountaineers and recently had a get together. Most of them, I hadn’t seen for a quite a long time. I feel elated. The feeling is simply beyond description. As a matter of fact, I was able to tug along with them last minor climb—Mt. Manalmon (April 14-15).

It feels damn good to be back on my feet!

*excerpt from The Official Website Province of Benguet

conquering mt. manalmon

life is..... too good.

sunset as seen from the peak of Mt. Manalmon

Whaaapaaaak!!!

One day i woke up with a big lump in my head. Swollen and painful. Damn!
I remembered, my head banged into something. Hehehe! I'm writing in metaphors again.
Syet! Sa wakas natauhan din! All it took was a simple phone call. I couldn't believe it.
And so it ended. Twas a pretty hard decision but i got to do it.
Life is too good and I'm not gonna spend it and waste my time dwelling on
my miseries and let myself miss those little but important extras in life. I admit, I'm in a melancholic state of mind right now. And there will always be a sudden unmistakable sadness in my eyes.
But exactly like a swollen lump in your head, it will heal soon and the pain will subside.
Friends surround me like bees--always ready to help me get my life back on track.
Family and of course,my little girl who never ceases to amaze me everyday.
It was all good, though. All good. Unfortunately. it didn't last. But who knows?
I'm not closing the door...Not yet.

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We had some sort of "team building" last Monday --- swimming with few of my friends.
The excitement was it wasn't planned but it went just great. Syempre, drunk and wasted.
Sooooooooo fuckin' drunk that I threw up. Waaaaa! Damn that tequilla!
It was the first page of the new chapter in my life.Naakz!
Let it burn, baby.I got to let it burn.

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Mt. Malid climb this weekend with Bulacan Mountaineers. DRT. Fuck! I don't have my stuffs yet.
This week is gonna be a VERY busy week! =I

Balik sa pamumundok.